I'm A Gay Gainer

There. I've said it. I'm a gay gainer.

Such a relief and a release to say those words out loud, somewhere on the Internet.

I'm also gaining in secret. My husband knows I'm gaining weight intentionally, but that's really about it.

I'm in my mid-30s and I live in the UK. And right now I'm 158 pounds.

I'm married, with a beautiful husband who's a big boy (and wants to lose weight).

I don't really know why I want to gain (well, I do. I want to be fat!) or why I'm fascinated by size and fat. I just know that I love fat and I want to feel bigger and weightier and heavy and lardier.

This is a secret blog. It's secret while I go through the process of exploring and understanding what this is and why I'm trying to do it.

I'm very happy to make friends with new people - mainly other gainers. I'm also very happily married and monogamous, so not on the market.