Showing posts with label backstory. Show all posts
Showing posts with label backstory. Show all posts

Thursday, 8 December 2011

More Backstory & Questions

I have been skinny most of my life. And I've hated it.

After a sustained period of weightlifting over the last few years I added 25lb, mostly muscle to my frame. In my own view, after all this effort I just looked normal.

I've increased my appetite over the last few years, but I'm still not a natural glutton (otherwise I'd be fat already!).

So here I am at 158lb genuinely having to put in effort to get fatter, when most of the rest of the world is maniacally and desperately trying to be thin, lean and muscular.

So the basic fact is, in order to gain weight, I'm actively going to have to work at doing it.

Since I stopped lifting weights a few months ago and actively allowed myself to eat more freely, I suspect I will be able to gain weight quite naturally.

And there are a lot of questions to answer...


  • How will I feel when I am fat?
  • Will my husband still be attracted to me?
  • How much do I really want to gain?
  • What about the health implications?
  • Can I be healthy AND fat at the same time?
  • What will it stop me doing?
  • How do I stay fit?
  • Will I really be happier and more comfortable as a chub?
  • Am I "mentally ill"?
  • How do I eat? Carbs? Low saturated fats? Both?
  • Should I just let it happen naturally?
  • Is gaining a "bad" thing? (and therefore bad to write a blog about?)
  • What about stretch marks?
  • What will I look like?
  • How will I feel?
  • Why do I keep wanting to pursue this then run away?!
All of these questions and more will be explored.

Your comments and support are very welcome.

If you have questions about gaining, I'm not an expert. I'm a novice. Instead, go and ask "Git Bigger" here: http://stupidgit.tumblr.com/

I'm A Gay Gainer

There. I've said it. I'm a gay gainer.

Such a relief and a release to say those words out loud, somewhere on the Internet.

I'm also gaining in secret. My husband knows I'm gaining weight intentionally, but that's really about it.

I'm in my mid-30s and I live in the UK. And right now I'm 158 pounds.

I'm married, with a beautiful husband who's a big boy (and wants to lose weight).

I don't really know why I want to gain (well, I do. I want to be fat!) or why I'm fascinated by size and fat. I just know that I love fat and I want to feel bigger and weightier and heavy and lardier.

This is a secret blog. It's secret while I go through the process of exploring and understanding what this is and why I'm trying to do it.

I'm very happy to make friends with new people - mainly other gainers. I'm also very happily married and monogamous, so not on the market.